you are controled

“A man who is master of himself can end a sorrow as easily as he can invent a pleasure. I don't want to be at the mercy of my emotions. I want to use them, to enjoy them, and to dominate them.” Oscar Wilde

“Themosticles said "The Athenians govern the Greeks; I govern the Athenians; you, my wife, govern me; your son governs you” - Plutarch

If you are in control, let it be. Forced power is weakness my friends.